All of us at some point are faced with tough times, whether it’s tough decisions or we find ourselves at a crossroads. I wouldn’t go as far as to say that these times define who we are because I’d like to believe that our best times is where we truly find out who we are and just how far we can go.
At our darkest times we are can’t possible be measured by that because who wants to be defined by the worst times?
After this past big move, I’ve found that I have to pull myself up after being knocked down. It’s not an easy place to be in, although I know it’s not the worst there is still a lot of work to be done and I know I’m capable of more.
I’m an eternal optimist, I believe that anything can happen and that any age we can become who we truly want to be. I’m using this time to find out who I am at my deepest core, and surprisingly it’s not what I thought.
I’ve had to take a couple of days to get back into the swing of things and decide what to do next. I’m not sure if what we do for a living should make us who we are, but it seems to play a large roll in who others think we are.
I’ve been working on non-judgement for a long time now and it will always continue to be a struggle, not because of what I judge but because of what others judge. You can’t possibly know someone else’s struggles until you walk in their shoes, and we all know that’s not possible.
Since we’ve moved everything and are somewhat settled I’ve started to realize that people aren’t so concerned with our move than with how if affects them. I had to take a step back and retract because I am done feeling overexposed and judged. In fact, I deleted my Facebook account simply for the fact that I wasn’t getting anything out of it other than stress and not that many people realized. That goes to show just how important it was…
I know who’s in my life for me and who will stand by me and understand me at my deepest core and those people won’t care about any of the other stuff, the only thing they care about is that I’m OK and in a good place.
I can’t say that I’m in the greatest place emotionally but I’ll get there. I have to do what’s right for me and my family right now and soon enough everything will fall into place.
Today was the first day I was able to attend the Buddhist’s Temple in a very long time and it was way over do. As soon as we started the meditation I was already there before I even closed my eyes. It was wonderful and it was a great start to getting back on track to being my true self.
I don’t know about anyone else, but stress does the worst things to my body. I can’t get out of just by pure will, it takes time. I’ve also gotten back into my yoga practice and I feel so much more in sync with mind both spiritually and emotionally.